In Small Packages.

I am sorry to all my readers that no post has been made for a while.

It seems for now that my life has taken a turn for the worse.

I know it is not easy to show up 100%. To feel safe to open ones heart in hopes that it will not be walked on. I know in my heart that this time I have done my best to do so. I know that to say the words I love you is to be vulnerable. I ask you, who could live without these words? To hear then or to say them is all we can ask for in a world so hard to understand.

A Course in Miracles says that God is an all encompassing unconditional love. It goes on to suggest that when we can see through another’s unconsciousness and allow then their issues and still be able to love them, we become as God intended us to be.

Then why is this so hard for people to get? Love does not come easy. When it comes hold on tight. Don’t run from it. Most times it’s best to run towards your fears. It may not show it’s warm shinny face again for a long time. Most people are afraid of love. This we know. They either can’t muster up the faith to feel it freely or they run when they come face to face with it. Why is it so scary to feel? When it is so Godlike to love in the first place.

A Course also says that our greatest fear is not how weak we think we are but how powerful we are. The course is talking about love being our power and the fear of it our weakness.

Loves executioner has walked into my life unannounced with no warning last Sunday. Yes, on a holly day. It has left me very sad and confused. I will never know what fault I hold that deserved such a blow, but I must go on.

My dreams shattered.

Loves executioner wiped me out for a week but now I must pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again. I know it wont be easy. I know it takes time to heal such a blow to ones heart. To much time for my liking.

Most times it’s best to run towards your fears.

This weekend my good friends came over to help me out of my pain. Thank God for them. We went to the Micanopy Fall Festival which is nothing shy of a giant flea market.

Full of crafts and food. I love the sweet potato pies

There I saw some of the sweetest faces God could have ever created. It warms my heart to be reminded that love is everywhere. All you have to do is open your eyes.

Look at these faces. How could one not feel the love?

See how they look back at us. All they ask is to be loved and they will give you back all they possess. Devotion. No matter what negative traits you may be healing at the time they are there for you. We could all take a lesson from our canine friends and become lovers in that vain. Don’t run from love. It’s way to hard to find. To many people carry so much shame and pain they can’t feel safe to open and love. My heart aches for them. Follow the lead of these little puppies. They know better then we do. Dog is God spelt backwards.

A coincidence? I don’t think so.

PS These are the faces of my reminders. I thank them every day. They know when I hurt and are there for me always. They are certainly getting me through it this time

PPS. He may not know it, He may not care but I know that I gave him all I had. If only the blind could see!